Lacking in nothing.

   I must say, I've always yearned for something beyond just the shallow conversation. For depth beyond just what lies on the surface of our lives, and yet, that yearning has always frightened me. Sharing my thoughts on anything has never been something I've been very comfortable with for the fear of sounding immature, naive, and just downright stupid. Instead I've written notes and thoughts down for none other than myself to view when I feel drawn for a review. Instead, God is showing me that is not that way I should be. No, it's not your natural shy nature, but you doubting your knowledge, or even an insecurity in your ability to keep up with the progressed conversation. It all boils down to being looked down upon because of my youth. The sting of not being taken seriously because of the lack of lines in my face, because so often age is a sign of wisdom and intelligence. Surely with all those years in the world much has been learned beyond ones self, including a sense of pride. No, I am not saying that anyone lacking youth is prideful, but rather for one to look down upon someone else requires at least a measure of pride. The definition of pride is 'a feeling or deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements of those with whom one is closely associated, or from qualities or possessions that are widely admired.'

With pride defined and possibly understood as being a rather selfish thing to feel, we are not to go into repentance for feeling pride in ourselves in daily tasks. Apart from God pride is destructive and as said in Psalm 10:4  'In his pride the wicked does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God.' Therefore what I am trying to at least introduce into the thought process is that many are drawn away from God by pride in themselves and their accomplishments, in both youth and further down the road of life. Sounds a bit gloom and doom, doesn't it?

Guess what God has said to us in this though! 'Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.' (1 Timothy 4;12) God is saying that no matter your age, no matter your experience in life, no matter your intelligence, He can use you if you let Him. God does not put desires on your heart to only let you struggle in your turmoil of never reaching such desires. He is calling you with something beyond words and something that seems to come from our very souls.

This desire for so much more beyond the shallow intellect is a reminder from God that not only has He given me intellect, but He will be my words when I have none when I am sharing of His love, mercy and goodness. This is why I no longer fear in sharing the opinions that I now see God has laid on my heart, because it is not me that is being seen, but Him through me. I've always heard about seeing the light of God shining through someone who truly loves Him and yet until  just last week I had never actually witnessed it. To see God shining through a fellow human made my heart sing because He was shining so greatly in a world of such darkness.

All this being said, we are not to feel lowly next to our fellow believers who have had more time with God, because He can use us just as readily as He uses the greatest of minds. Also that even the oldest of believers can learn from the youngest if God wishes it.

Free will VS God's way.

    Sometimes, I really hate free will. I mean wouldn't God's way always be best? It would save us so much agony, if we didn't and even couldn't do the stupid things we want to in our lives. What a perfect life it would be, but God doesn't work like that. He lets us learn from our own mistakes and He lets those mistakes change us into the people we are meant to be. Half of the testimonies wouldn't even be without a rags to riches, mountain peak to valley type of story. We wouldn't get to see just how great and huge God was and is because He has, can and will bring us out of our misery. You know God does not delight in evil or in our pain. He is not like the gods on stories and in mythology. He loves us as He created us even the flaws He put into us and said it is good. So when we are hurting because of our free will He hurts with us. Our wickedness hurts His heart. It's not like a parent who is angry at their child for the bad they have done because it is a reflection of them. He feels agony when we are immersed in our sin because we are far away from Him. He wants nothing more then to have His children come to Him. It's why He sent His son to die on the cross for our sins, otherwise we would be eternally separated from God and His heart would ache for our separation. He yearns to be a part of our lives not because He wants to rule over us and be this deity in the clouds directing our every foot step for his own pleasure and entertainment. He wants to love us and comfort us when we need Him. God is love defined.

Knowing that God loves you that much, why would you allow anyone to touch you who has not vowed before God Himself to have and hold you in sickness and health, richer and poorer.

Knowing that God loves you that much, why would you allow anyone to love you who has not learned love from the one who defines and created love?

Knowing that God loves you that much why would we not trust Him with every aspect of our lives? Our best interests and happiness is what motivates Him. Why not trust in that?

Once again, this is where that pesky free will comes in. When we are not so engulfed and enraptured and in love with God our free will causes us pain. We cannot ask God why, when it is us that have opened our bodies to anyone willing to look. And it is us who have once again suffered a broken heart or broken a heart. It is us who have withheld our trust from God because it is easier to be in control and in the moment it feels good to be touched and held. But nothing can compare to what God has for you when you wait on His timing and follow Him even when it's hard. The reward comes from the creator of the universe, so could you expect anything less then perfection?

Our own pleasure, settling and distrust of God pushes us away from Him because it takes forefront in our lives where God wants to be. His desire is that your relationship with Him be above all else; husbands, wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, best friends, sisters, brothers, bosses, co-workers or anyone else on this earth. When He is first and foremost in your life you will know what true love is. And not what you think your significant other is giving you, but the purest love that comes straight from the source. It's a love that will never cause harm, or leave you even in the darkest moments of your life. Knowing that love will change your life all for the best.

"I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
                                                   Jeremiah 29:11

Will you follow God's lead in His plans to prosper you in your future? Or will you remain where you are in mediocre happiness and love?

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My future and what it holds.

Alright, so it's been a little while since I've posted something. BUT if you follow me anywhere else you'll know about my new obsession with healthful eating. Although the word obsession is typically used for something that is just going to be obsessed about for a short time. This fascination began about two months ago and I don't see it going anywhere anytime soon. It has been a complete lifestyle change for me. I'm more motivated to work out and eat healthy. In fact, eating junk isn't really an option for me anymore. I have  no desire to eat any of the junk I ate before just because I was hungry. I feel like a new person! I do feel like it has helped me to develop more self-control and patience.

Anyway, so what this blog was meant to be about is the fact that I love cooking and baking now. I've always gone through phases where I would cook for maybe a week and then fall out of it. Over the past two months I've been using the stove top and oven more and more, and with increasing ease. In fact this past weekend I made my family (minus Courtney) dinner: Turkey burgers with a side of fruit salad and green beans. I really enjoyed the experience and even more enjoyed the compliments I got on my meal. The best I got was from my dad, who is known to slather everything in BBQ sauce no matter the seasoning and preparation you took to get the flavors right. I begged him not to put his favorite condiment on these burgers, but rather use the coarse ground mustard I recommended. He loved it! "I never thought you would be good at cooking." Was his compliment about half way through the burger. Although my mom and sisters laughed, my response was...."Me either."

I've always been the odd one out when it came to cooking and baking in my family. Courtney is and I think will always be the baker in our family. She makes amazing cakes and she is a phenomenal decorator as well. Brittany is the cook. From the time she was a teenager she was cooking these great Italian meals. Anna is the kind of all around cook, she will bake or cook on the stove top, whatever she needs. I on the other hand have almost always been the microwave queen. Even making something as simple as oatmeal on the stove top for the first time would have me stressed out and unsure of every single step despite the fact that it was spelled out in simple English. Plus I wasn't ever patient enough to wait on something to cook or bake. Instant was the way to go, because when I was hungry, I was HUNGRY.

So now I am really seeing the way God is changing me and I am so very excited to see what He is preparing me for in my future. If it's keeping myself and my husband healthy and having meals prepared for him in advance I am so ready for that. Or if it's something more along the lines of cooking, baking and catering meals to the likes of children, I am ready for that as well. The thought of starting my own children off eating the delicious foods that God created for us from the start is an exciting endeavor. I want to show them the tastes of cheese beyond the boring old cheddar. Brie, feta, provolone, ricotta, monterey jack and always mozzarella cheeses. I can also tell you fruit will be a daily staple in my home. I have come to highly enjoy the sweet and tartness of strawberries, blueberries, kiwi and pineapple in my daily life. Don't even get me started on bananas though. I've never been a fan of the yellow encased fruit until now. I could eat two or three everyday and still not get enough.

Let's just say I am very much looking forward to the future that God has for me, no matter what path it may take me down. I also want to encourage fellow young woman who could never picture having a family of their own.......If it's what God wants He will provide you with the tools you will need and it will be greater and more important then any career you could have had in it's place.

The touchy subject.

     Okay, so it's been a little while since I've posted anything, but nothing has struck me to my core to write about, until today. 

While reading Dear Abby in the newspaper today the subject was abortion. A thought on this extremely touchy subject struck me to my heart. Women are willingly and under their own power going into a doctor's office and allowing a doctor to often ruthlessly murder their unborn child while still inside of their womb. How much darker could this world become? 

I don't know about you, but if I got pregnant, no matter the circumstances I would do everything in my power to protect that child because there is a reason God wanted me to have it. 

Why is it that people are so afraid to stand up against abortion? Is it because men aren't 'allowed' to have an opinion on this issue because it is unrelated to them? Is it because women are so ashamed that they have had a secret abortion in the past that they fear their past sins will come to life with their stance? Whatever the reason; I am here today to stand up against abortion and any politician that supports this heinous procedure.

There is no way I can comprehend the thought of someone being just fine with the murder of innocent children while they are in the safest place in the world; their mother's womb. The uproar that was created by the shooting at Sandy Hook Elementary School brought many to their knees in tears, and yet all around this country infants are being murdered in cold blood every single day and not a tear is shed. 

Why is a baby who is the product of a rape to pay for it's father's hurtful actions? This innocent life has done nothing wrong, and yet they are killed nonetheless. If that isn't a morbid thought, I don't know what is. Although it is a woman's choice in what happens to her body, this child is not her body, it is another human being who for a short time is growing inside of her. If not her job to protect her child, who's job is it?

So many organizations stand up against animal cruelty and we are bombarded with brutal photos of animals that have been tortured and beaten. Where are the organizations showing photos of mutilated babies with their arms and legs ripped off as a result of an abortion? What must be done to put this disgusting act in proportion for each and every person? 

I won't now, or ever stand for abortion. Is anyone out there with me?

Why are we just surviving, instead of living?

     There is always talk about how hard men have it in this world with the temptation of half naked women all over the place in everyday life. From the mall where you see Victoria Secret models posing in next to nothing in ten foot photographs to advertise the undergarments, to the ability to access the porn industry with just a couple clicks, our world is doing everything in it's power to make it next to impossible to live a life that isn't filled with the garbage that surrounds us. Although yes, I can  only imagine the difficulties of being a man in this world, what about the talk of being a woman in that same world?

There is the talk about the fear of a young woman trying to live a Christ-like life in that same world, or the risks of walking or traveling anywhere alone because she may be the target of a group of men so ready to have their way with her and leave her for dead. Then there are the more subtle men that simply sweet talk a woman right out of her clothes. These are the men she had to put up in her day to day life: Perverted men she knows are undressing her in their minds no matter what she is wearing. How is she supposed to live freely and without apprehension, knowing she is being objectified by many of the men she comes in contact with? The conversations she overhears between men can make her want to hide under a rock with no means of ever returning to the light of day. 

I'm not here to talk about how women have it much harder then men, but simply that the struggles are there for both sexes. I also want to encourage women out there to stand strong and not fall for the tricks of those dishonorable men out there that are only trying to satisfy their ulterior motives. 

Sitting here typing this, I can only imagine the amount of women that are already 'tainted' in their eyes. Just because you've lived the lifestyle of using sex to create jealousy, or used it to simply feel loved and held for that short amount of time, I will give you this good news: It is not too late to turn back! That life isn't something you have to live. There is such thing as demanding the respect of a man, thus having him accepting your wishes in the area of intimacy. A man that is truly respecting your wishes will not try to sweet talk you into what you just said you didn't want, nor will he try to bargain with you. I truly believe that there is one man for every woman. So why would you want to spend your life  before you meet them sleeping with every other person you come in contact with? How would that make your future husband feel? Like he is nothing special and just another notch in your headboard? 

Hence the title of this blog; it's ultimately about living your life the way you want to, and taking charge of your body. Don't leave it up to a guy, because chances are you'll end up with multiple holes in your heart leaving you incomplete for your husband. Whether or not you even believe in marriage; there is going to be that one person that eventually comes into your life that you'll want to spend the rest of it with. Wouldn't it be amazing on your wedding day to be able to say to your husband.  "You have my entire heart because I've never given it to another man." Could you imagine how special he would feel? How honored and how he would feel the desire to protect it? Also.... "My body is also yours because I lived knowing this day would come and I wanted to give you this gift." 

So ladies, lets not just try surviving this world by rolling with the punches, but lets throw a few of our own and live this life! 

        So I, Vanessa Boose am jumping onto this blogging bandwagon. All I know is that this blog is going to be a random collection of everything that has to do with my life on a day to day basis. Those subjects vary from music, movies, fashion, celebrities, religion, fitness and everything in between. 

Not to sound conceited or anything but, enough about my blog. It's time to learn about me, that is if you don't know me already. 

I am the eldest of four girls, three of which are triplets. No, I am not one of the triplets. Recently (yesterday), I entered into my twenty-fifth year of existence. I am a born and raised Army brat who loves to, and dreams of traveling. I fondly refer to myself as a living contradiction due to my wide variety of interests. My nationality is always the most fun part of filling out an online job application. Black, white and Native American, though that is simply put. My eyes are brown. Gosh, it's hard to talk about yourself..... 

Growing up I was raised Christian. Now I'm sure you're expecting to hear about how I strayed from my faith in God and such. That is indeed not the case. At the age of 24, I am still a believer and follower of Jesus Christ. Although some days are much easier then others. I have my days that are just full of smiles and shouts of joy for my Savior. Other days are just downright hard. Tears and cries of frustration in the direction of that same Savior. The thing I love about God though is that He is always there, and just because you were pissed off at him yesterday doesn't change how much He loves you or how He is there for you. Anyway,  I could go on for days and days about how God is amazing, but I won't. At least not today. ;) 

In December of 2012, I graduated from Paul Mitchell the School. So if you can't tell, I love doing hair! Although going through cosmetology school had brought to light the fact that I ADORE makeup! I'd already known that from the time I was about 17, but school actually showed me you could have a career in makeup artistry. I've done a wedding, multiple fashion shows, (which I also planned) and various photo shoots. Speaking of photo shoots, I have a love of photography as well. 

I can very much be a girly girl with my love of fashion and makeup, but there is a tomboyish side of me that loves to wrestle. (Sorry for the bruises mom!) A tattoo or piercing shop are two of the coolest places to hang out and talk to people in my opinion. I've lost count of my ear piercings, which I could go and count but that is too much work. So we'll just say I have a bunch of holes in my head, two in my nose and one in my lip. Which lately I've been having a love/hate relationship with. After about three years it may be over between me and Mr. lip piercing. I have eight tattoos, and many more ideas. 

I have the perverted mind of a man. You have to be a complete jerk for me to not like you. Getting me to laugh on the other hand is not a hard thing to do. I've been told that I'm one of the most cheerful people that anyone has ever met. Honestly, sometimes I'm just a good actress though. Music is like my heartbeat. Recently I've broadened my musical horizons, at least slightly. I have gone from listening to mostly rock and metal to listening to almost everything, including some country! 

Anyway, that is me, Vanessa Boose in a nutshell. And now I'm going to go do something that has nothing to do with me because I've had enough of me. 

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Umm, bye? Over and out? Peace? Whatever I say to end a blog.....talk to you later.